He Knows

One might say that Kalee and I have had a new life in the last month or two. That is fair to say. What do we say? We say that we have been extremely blessed. And we credit it all to our loving Heavenly Father who saw our desire and commitment, and gave to us what he saw fit. Not that I am one to share personal stories very often, and not because I don't want to, but I just don't. I have some spiritual experiences that have happened to me that I have told to very few people, and only when I have been prompted to. And this is one of those times. And I don't know why. But I feel that the message of this experience applies to us all, and is a very real thing. As I stood in fast and testimony meeting last month in the ward that Kalee and I attended with my parents, I stood and told of a voice I heard a few months previous in that very room. It was in February or March, I can't recall, and it was during the passing of the Sacrament. In my parents ward, there is a mix of older couple's and young established families. Not a huge amount of youth at all. So during the passing of the Sacrament, it is pretty quiet. During this time, I was thinking about the situation I was in. I wouldn't say that I was feeling bad for myself, or was sad or depressed, but I just wasn't in the situation that I had hoped or expected to be in at that moment in my life. I didn't have a job that I loved at the time, but I did have a job, and for that I was greatful! And it proved to be a great job that loved to be at. Kalee wasn't working at the time, and we didn't have a lot of money. We couldn't afford to move out of my parents basement and still pay the bills that we had. Like I said, I wasn't sad, but just wasn't where I wanted to be. During the passing of the Sacrament, I was thinking about the covenants I had made at baptism, when I went to the temple, and recently when I was sealed to Kalee in the temple. At this moment, and when I was listening to the Spirit, I heard a voice say directly to me "he knows." I still get emotional when I think about that experience and while I am writing this. Because those two simple words, two very simple words that we use everyday, spoke to me and told me exactly what I needed to hear at that time. My Heavenly Father, who knows me as an individual son of him, knows what I am going through. He knows what circumstance I am in, and he knows the desires of my heart. Now I could say that he heard my prayers, and I am sure he had and continues to do so, but I know that Kalee's prayers were a lot more intense asking for the ability to get the heck out of her in-laws basement. :) Kalee has admitted that almost every Saturday and Sunday, when I left the house in the middle of the day to work the closing shift at Toy's R US, she cried. And all that she could do to gain some comfort was to pray to her Heavenly Father and ask for his help. It was also very hard for her to get home after work and not have me there until 10 or so in the night. But he truly does know! Our Heavenly Father wants us to be happy. He wants us to have the full blessings of marriage, of living in our own place, or of keeping the commandments. He wants us to receive the full blessings of paying a tithe, even when you have very little income, and it seems to be a lot of money at the time. HE KNOWS! But it is up to us to keep those commandments so that those blessings can come. He truly does know the situation that all of us are in, and he knows what we need in that moment, and he knows what needs to happen right now, for us to be where we need to be in the future. He knows. And that is true. I know. -Vince